For those of you who read my blog and are our FRIENDS not RELATIVES, please disregard this post. It is meant only to get a message out. It will be deleted before making a book :) I might sound immature or a complete ass, but I dont care. There is some stuff I have had enough of.
YES, I have MS. YES, it will impact the rest of my life GOOD or BAD. Whether it is a good day or a bad day, I will live my life as a normal person. I do not need to be told by anyone on where I can go, or what I can do. I will always make those decisions myself (based on what God wants me to do of course). One day, if I can not make decisions on my own, my husband will be the one who decides for me. I have 100% faith he will do what is best for me and our family. I don't care if my immune system might not be 100% as healthy as a normal person, but no one will tell me I can not go visit my grandfather who by the way is in his late 80's and could die any day. You never know. He will see me, he will see his great-grandkids. That is all there is to it.
We are awesome parents. We do the best we can given the circumstances we are faced with right now. NO ONE starts off rich, unless you have a wealthy family member who passes it down to you. MOST people have to work their way up and that is how it is suppose to be. YOU were not wealthy and your wealth now could go away ANY day. Then where would you be?
I was strong enough to take all the crap that was being dished out, but not anymore. If you want me to stay healthy as long as I can, then keep your negative thoughts to yourself. We dont care about them. You will not dishonor our family or our children. They will be impacted greatly by how you treat us, and how we respond out of anger. They are not stupid.
We are BAPTIST!!!! We are staying that way. I was raised for 23 years baptist. It is what we believe and it is what we are teaching our children. You can believe whatever you want to believe, but you keep it amongst you and your fellow believers. The first time you try to confuse my children you lose contact with them. Family is the most important thing to me apart from God, but if family is causing harm to my kids or family in any way, I will let go. You cant teach me something all my life and one day come and say we are all going to hell. The most important day of my daughters life, one of you were non-existent. You know who you are.
I only want happiness in my home. If you can not come visit and provide ONLY that, then you are no longer welcome. I don't care who you are. I will not spend holidays with people who are going to always find some negative conversation to have.
I want happiness and to be healthy, and in order to achieve that I have to put aside some things that can be a detour. We all have to make sacrifices. I can't be the best WIFE, MOM, or FRIEND, when I have people in my life who are trying to steer me the opposite way. You have had one of the worst marriages my entire life, and you never found it necessary to try to mend. I don't want to be like you. It destroys the people you love. If I turn out like you, so will my kids. They tend to take after the ones who raised them. You have lots of positive things, but I am only focusing on the things that have caused me and my family harm.
I love you guys, but I cant take the stress anymore. I get stress and anxiety every time I talk to you or visit you (here or there). It is bad for my health and probably everyone elses. I just want you to be happy for us. We are the ESTES family and things will only get BETTER!!!!!!